EDITOR'S NOTE: Here's an excerpt ..
SUBJECT: Dark Corners of Canadian History of Abuse
FROM: Ziggy Menzel
FROM: Blog Talk Radio / Facebook
DATE: March 21, 2011
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| Thoughts about my interview. - Feb 6th
It is 2011, January 30th, I decided to confront my demons with Brian and Chris Kemp on the Radio Show — about the sexual abuse I suffered at the hands of workers, and the anger I feel no one can imagine.
Wandering through the memories of my head, I was pointed to dorms, living rooms, dining halls, faces, screams, voices and images I thought were long lost and burried deep away.
One of the things I remember being taught was "thou shalt not steal." How ironic. What the reform schools stole from me was a lot more then stealing material things!
If I lay out my suffering and other boys suffering, there was blood all over the walls. Some were beaten so badly that their underwear was buried into their skin. Some faces were unrecognizable after multiple beatings with a stick.
Many young boys were taken to the concrete building we called "the Hall." Children were tortured, sodomized .. and sometimes killed.
People tell me to get over the kind of brutailty I have suffered. Ohhh, how I wish I could.
Sometimes it will be set of by a smell, a noise, or images seen on TV .. news stories I hear or read.
Then I hear some comments or someone trying to give me sound advice to go and see physiatrists.
I have done all that, believe me when I say this. But none of them can delete this torment.
How I wish would be able to remove my brain, place it in to a bowl of bleach for a few days, and make it become pure again, so I could start my life over..
A week has past since my interview and I feel ashamed that I let people down who are very close to me, let people down who trying to help.
The one person who has never left my side has been my wife, but it seems like I am pushing her further and further away....
It is easy for me to say I will stand up for her and my stepsons to keep my family together. But saying and doing are two differnt things.
Looking back of all the time I wasted, all the promises I made, I am actually just a shell of a man.
My wish is that the abusers of all reform schools and residental schools, not only here in Canada but all over the world, will be brought to justice, before we die.
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